Tuesday, June 15, 2010

My Vessel here on Earth

I was thinking today that our bodies are the vessels that keep our souls here on earth and allow them to work.

So, what if our vessels are not as good as they should be?  What if our vessels are broken down? 

What got me thinking about this is the fact that I have started back going to the gym this week.  And BOY if I am ever sore!   Before the Gastrointestinal Module began I had been working out at least a few days a week, but it has really been about 2 months since I last worked out.  I always do this.  It is my pattern.  I will go strong for a few days, a few weeks, a few months and then I quit.

Of course there are excuses...

There's the ever popular:  I'm just so busy.   And what about,  I really need to sleep more than I need to workout. How about:  I just don't feel like it today?  I know that at times these are all valid reasons to shun some responsibilities that can be put off for later; however, I am the queen of excuses...especially when it comes to my body.  And, to make things worse...my class is almost completely full of people who do take good care of their bodies...I think this is a big sign pointing to the fact that I need to change and quickly.

It's become a crutch...

My weight, that is.  I find myself telling people, "I've always had a weight problem." It's true that I have, but what is my excuse for still having a weight problem?  The only thing that really makes any sense is a problem that I face in many areas of my life:  lack of will-power, lack of self-control.  This is especially true when it comes to food.  Food has always been there for me....like an old friend.  To comfort me when I'm stressed, upset, and sometimes even just because. 

I am unhappy with this...

I am better than this.  I know I am, and I know how to change.  I've been dieting my whole life.  I have read every book.  I know what works and what doesn't but I always give up.  I always give in.  

Part of me wonders if it is even possible to change?

I have even prayed about it.  I've asked God to create in me a more self-controlled and disciplined person, but maybe it's been inside me all along and I'm supposed to just show it. But, how to deal with my emotions without food?  That's another issue all together.  I want a vice-free life.  I want to be strong enough to shoulder my burdens without food or anything else.  When I say I'm going to do something, I want to be the type of person who does it.  I think I've mastered this concept in every other area of my life except this one.  Why not this one?  I don't think there is anything stopping me but me.  

The simple truth..

I need to lose weight.  I need to do this and not just for aesthetic reasons, but because I have dealt with this my ENTIRE life. Because I need to prove to myself that I am stronger than this.  Because my health my be in danger and my earthly vessel may be compromised someday very soon if I don't.  Also, because I think it is kind of hypocritical of me to try and teach others how to be healthy when I'm not.  

What I'm going to do about it... 
I'm going to join weight watchers.  I have a date and everything.  Two weeks from Today on June 28th is when I will be beginning this journey to a new me.  I have tried weight watchers before, and it worked, but I gave up on it.  With the excuse that, "I didn't have the money anyway."  I shudder to think about the laziness in that statement.  Some things in life are a priority.  I need to make my health one of them for the time being.  I do indeed believe that our souls are far more important than our bodies, but how am I to accomplish everything I need to accomplish in this life if I don't take care of my earthly vessel.  It starts now.  I am also on a real mission to work out at least once a day for 45 minutes to an hour 6 times a week.  SO, I need your prayers as I put this plan into action in the next few weeks. 

2 comments:

  1. Lindsay,
    Try this virtual makeover to see what you will look like when you get to your goal at www.weightmirror.com. You can upload a current photo of yourself, then enter your current weight, height, and how many pounds you want to lose. It will "make-over" your photo image and create an image of a "skinnier you". Then you can print the "before and after" photos and keep with you for inspiration to keep trying to reach your goal. I tried this and the results really inspired me to keep going.

    I am so proud of you and I know WW can help you meet your goals!

    Read these scriptures to confirm for yourself that God will help you lose the weight through the Bible scriptures.

    Phillippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

    Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

    Transforming your old habit into a new and healthier habit is a difficult thing to do without help. Your decision to join a support group like WW will help in so many ways. You can have more success while helping others. These scriptures can help you with that.

    Proverbs 3:28 Say not unto thy neighbor, Go, and come again, and to morrow I will give; when thou hast it by thee.

    Hebrews 3:13 But exhort one another daily, while it is called To day; lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin.
    You do not have to do it alone. These scriptures will help you ask for the help you need.

    Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

    Psalms 16:7 I will bless the LORD, who hath given me counsel: my reins also instruct me in the night seasons.

    We have an obligation to God, to ourselves and our loved ones, to take care of our health and our body. And losing weight is one way to do so.

    1 Corinthians 6:19-20 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.

    These scripture will help you to stop procrastinating and ask God for help.

    Proverbs 6:9 How long wilt thou sleep, O sluggard? When wilt thou arise out of thy sleep?

    Phillippians 4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

    Throughout your journey to lose weight this scripture will help you to stop eating junk.

    1 Corinthians 10:31 Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.

    These Bible scriptures combined with your self-discipline and a good weight loss program is a guarantee for success.

    Love you,
    Aunt Kimberly

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  2. I love the scriptures, Lindsay's Aunt Kimberly. :-) I need to use those myself.

    I struggle with food, too, Lindsay, and it often becomes an idol to me. Food guarantees a good feeling (at least while it's in my mouth!) and I look forward to its pleasures every day. Those things aren't wrong in themselves, but when I don't keep them in the proper perspective (and I often don't), they become sin for me.

    So count me in as someone who will be praying for you on this journey. Sounds like you have a great plan and I know you'll have many who will be supporting you. May God be glorified through your desire to please him in this way.

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